I love to plan. I love spontaneity. I love chaos and I love stillness. I invite change. I hate (and love) routine. I love simple. I love super complicated. I hate boring. I love experiencing new. I am creature of habit and sometimes completely unpredictable, in the same moment. As I have live more and experience more and continue to find myself more…I realize more than I did when I was 22…my first moment with ‘life is short’…I love life…I LOVE LIFE so much…even when I am so challenged I can’t see past the day ahead of me…I am learning more each day why this is…why my love grows, even as the complexities and traumas and joys happen…
I ran across two quotes lately that stopped me in my tracks. Made me literally breakdown in tears. Made me go scream outloud…YES. FINALLY. What I have been trying to articulate…
As an individual who thought she was on paths that were my north star…man, has the last two years challenged that. And yes in the midst of challenge, in the midst of falling to my knees, in the midst of wanting to throw the towel in…I have been able to have some of the greatest breakthroughs, joys, and memorable moments ever in my life. Seems odd to say, but it is true. In the most complex, hardest and challenging chapters, I have found the most beautiful moments. I believe that it is these moments, the ‘beautifully complex,’ as I call them…that show us that the messiness of life is what it is all about. And in those moments, we should be brave. To admit that we aren’t fine…but finding joy and not being afraid to smile. We should stare life in the face and say “watch me.” I am grateful for the messiness of life, for being brave…for every single part I have experienced and have yet to…because without…I wouldn’t have the beautiful complexity that is my life.
I am sharing this because in the midst of going through more change in this world I have ever been a part of…I know while my story is unique…we are all experiencing change. We all have our struggles. And if nothing else…this is me saying to the myself and the world around me…it’s the beautiful complexity that is REAL LIFE. That is the purpose of why we are here to exist…embrace it. Breathe it in. Challenge yourself. Smile at yourself. Be kind to yourself. And remind yourself…change is the constant. It is the beautify you find in that change that is important. It is always there. Sometimes short…sometimes long…
Beautiful Complexity. That is what I am eternally grateful for.
Every. Single. Day.
